Pink - Heartbreaker
Us girls are fools. Really. Now I am sure about it. At least I am an idiot. How can a girl like a guy when it's obvious even for her that he is a real jerk. That makes no sense. Even if you know that he is so astute, lies and surely doesn't take you seriously, you just still fall for him. And why? Because when you figured out what he really is, it's just too late. He just caught you with his kindness, his politeness, his smile and his sparkling eyes. And when you figure out his disguise, you are already caught and there is no way back. (Actually there is an old song in Hungarian which discribes this feeling very well. When I go home for weekend I will translate it for you or for myself, since no one reads my blog as far as I know=P) Anyway, now I am in a situation like that.
I fall for a guy, though I know probably he's just playing around with me. That sucks, really. He's ego is too much, I know it. And after all I am surely a perfect goal for him, because I live far and after I get back from his country in summer, he will never have to see me. So he can just mess around, he can go as far as he wants, and as far I let him go and there will be no consequences. I go home and he doesn't need to bother with things like turning me down after he had enough of me. Perfect match, surely.
Open relationship. That's his status on facebook. Maybe he just wants to show off. But if not, than I am really a perfect match. Anyway, what does an open relationship mean? In my reading: "I can have sex with any girl I want, but at the end I go back to one, who I have sex more time than with the others." Is it a relationship? Actually I don't have problems with those who do that, but if I had a boyfriend who would tell me to live in an open relationship at least I would beat him up as an answer and the next thing he would see is my back. But everyone has a different taste.
Anyway, I am nearly sure about that what he wants is just playing a little, enjoying himself and such. But still I am falling for him. I am such an idiot....